Finding Myself

I will persist until I succeed. When each day is ended, not regarding whether it has been a success or a failure. I will attempt to do one more task.
Never will I allow any day to end with failure.-Og Mandino

...Back then, fun,enjoyment and good times are some of the things that are most important to me! I felt that the primary aim of life is to have as much fun as possible. In keeping with this style of life, I avoided getting too deeply involved with other people, didn't want to have family responsobilities and felt that I shouldn't become too committed to anything or anyone.
Nut when I turned 22, strange that people, specially my family expected miracles to happen. Expected something like being mature, stable, responsible and worst, succesful in all my endeavors.
Today, my friends laughed at me. They didn't quite understand my need to be alone and be serious. they didn't quite undersrand that I had t oforfiet all those fun stuffs like volleyball games, partying and lingering at the village, in favor of my job. Yes, I didn't quite understand why I had to work. Yet, I felt that I need a job and earn money.
So here I am in my usuak formal wear feeling the scorching ray of light of my computer as it strikes my unprotected eyes. I am here at my desk answering phone calls. Oblivious of anything I continue working. In this momen, I see life and it's various contradictions-the happiness I experienced, callously erased by the sadness which even the gentlest hand can't soothe. I then looked around this office with busy co-workers, phonesringing, computers hanging up and customers loitering around waiting for their names to be called. Yet, instead of being turned off by the commotion, I felt enlightened for amidst the disarray, I see my futere unfolding- a thousand voices, a million faces and limitless pathways.
I now find myself with great responsibility but with better future.